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My journey has for a long time involved deep introspections, and subtle awarenesses of my perception and Consciousness... whatever method I have chosen to summon a confrontation with my ultimate self, I have always held in mind my honorable intentions of Truth and Understanding, not just for myself, but for All... although, it is my own enticement with the Mystery that keeps me going, I know... but each time that I have seen my True Face, the impression remains... the Insights fade... and then slowly some of the impression fades as well... but over time I have begun to leave myself clues... to lead me back to the Truth of this Reality and this Existence... synchronicities lie along the fault lines swirling out from the Tear in the fabric of This Manifestation... through which pears the One Consciousness... and the tear is a tear through many layers... cascading into the distance... and that distance is leading away from me... but that which leads away... describes a path that also leads towards... and tracing backwards I have done to find the Source... and you know the Source is the One Being... so there is nothing else but the ebb and flow of multiplicities to play with for an eternity, or else a choice to dwell in union and timelessness... and this is our dance... back and forth between the two... and our sorrow, and our joy... so I Love you... since I see in your face, my own endlessness, my own other side hidden 'hind your eyes... and out from the Center folds layers and layers of shrouding Mystery, and veils of Forgetting between my own Gaze and the TransConscious Memory holding reality to it's patterns... a consensual Bondage into a world of illusion for the ride of lifetime... every lifetime... for every one... and then no one... until again, another way, another when...
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the Self reflecting in the Self
and thus cascades our illusion into world upon world upon world
a Vision I had the other day, was of my mind inside itself... the symmetry of my mind and sensation as it divided throughout the body... swirling out in its double helix wrapping around itself and out into time and space, the history, the future... and at the center of that ... the ultimate perception within the body of consciousness entering ... through a channel... flapping on and off... on and off... blinking in rhythm... a wave of vibration... and the Flutter of that vibration... a level of self outside of self and inside of Self... the Butterfly had Flown... it was I in my Faery form... within myself outside myself... a Butterfly Being of Light peaking into this plane...
and the trail always continues... I looked as I'm prone to do... I choose now to find, blaze, and re-blaze the trails... the Butterfly was caught in my mind... do you know what the ancient Greek word for butterfly is? I don't remember knowing this before a few days ago... It has multiple meanings... but the word for butterfly as we know it today, is Psyche...
www.insects.org/ced4/etymology.html
see the entry... [Also meant "soul", and "breath" (now "mind", of course).]
this is elating...
but... I'm not "caught" on this butterfly layer either... I've seen the Self reflecting the Self, and even residing in itself without reflection... I know each reference layer holds beauty and magick for sure, but each is also only an illusory step away from union and a plane of convergence through which the synchronicity swirls do spin... reaching backwards into me
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I would, however, Love to raise the center of gravity of my share of Being to the Butterfly of Light level... to dwell, onwards and upwards...
Peace and Growth, Love and Light,
Brian
Endless Love,
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Re: I'm sharing these thoughts around...
Thu, August 30, 2007 - 2:55 PMI heard someone once say of space travel, "It is as if for every step you took, you take only one half of the step that you took previously, then half of that step, and half of that step, so on and so forth, and that is what traveling through space is like."
For me at this moment, perhaps that is what self realization is like. Some of us see it as a journey, a process, a moving from here, to there, to point A to point B. I am not so sure (at least in my mind) that it is about movement, or paths at all. If I were to stand at the base of a fast moving river, enough so that the current was waist deep, and my intention is to stand perfectly still, here is the question. Are you moving, or standing still? In one sense, I am moving in that I am fighting the current, engaging muscles, strength, and effort to stand perfectly still even when the current and my submission to the current wants to sweep me away. However, how do I appear to a third party? I appear as if I am standing perfectly still, not doing anything. The reality? Both are perfectly true, I am moving, and standing still at the same exact moment. Wu Wei, moving, not moving, action, non action... Such is the progression of my true self. However, what is the TRUE self? I cannot answer that. To say that it is God is an impossible statement to claim, I do not know the mind of God, even if I in some way AM GOD, at least I am not there yet. And much like to problem of leaving a bread trail to the perfect self, a reminder of what it looks like, I cannot say what that is either. I suppose I would say that much like Wu Wei my journey is one of surrender, and effort at the same time, however if there is truly only one thing in the universe that expresses itself as an infinite amount of possibilities, I suppose that my next question would be, "What is there possibly to move towards? What journey can one possibly make if one is already at the destination?" More poignantly, where can one possibly journey to if they are already there? Who could someone possibly try to become if they already are who they are? How can I not be who I already am? There is no right or wrong, those possibilities are already being expressed, there is only, what is appropriate for the moment. If the course does not work, change the course. Move without moving, know without knowing, be without being, do without doing. Allow... Succumb... Surrender... Don't try... Just do.
